The solstice is always a moment of rebirth. It is only when we succumb to the inky clarity of utter darkness that we remember ourselves to be the true source of all light. Calling back the tendrils we’ve sent out searching for meaning and connection, we breathe a sigh of relief as we realize we are and always have been exactly where we are meant to be. It’s easy to miss, like your glasses on top of your head. But it’s there, this return home to our most fundamental truth. We are what we seek.
This year on the solstice there is also a conjunction of the planets Saturn and Jupiter, the interface between our subtle body architecture and the infinite possibility of life. It is a remarkable opportunity.
Saturn sets your sails, and it’s important to understand that your unconscious beliefs also have a hand on the tiller. While you stand on the prow declaring progress in one direction, these unseen motivators often cause the vessel of your life to move in a very different trajectory. It’s easy to fall into a sense of futility and defeat.
The problem is that we don’t know what we don’t know. We have in our bodies 70 trillion cells, and inside each of those cells lives six feet of DNA (much of which isn’t human). We do not fit inside of ourselves, and our very existence breaks the laws of physics. It would be impossible to personally account for all the programming we carry, and so to reconcile and bring the system into balance, we have to reach outside of what we think we know for help.
Jupiter is the planet of miracles and wild cards, of what you never saw coming. It is the part of us that exists beyond the gates of the encampment we’ve built based on what we expect to be there, not knowing that we’re recycling the same stale materials over and over again.
This conjunction is an invitation to reinvent the idea of structure. Without the influence of Jupiter, Saturn is simply a block of typeset, printing out the same story time and again. What would it be like to open ourselves to something outside of this system that only allows and proves what we already believe to be true?
Start with what’s important to you. Take your time. There are many layers to it as it distills to something essential. When you’ve got a sense of it, let yourself feel the yearning for it, this impulse from your deepest light, allowing your whole being to become an invocation for the fulfillment of this desire.
Like the impossibility of your body, the shape you are made of defies all known laws. Rather than conforming to what you think will fill your needs, ache for what you love and allow that to mold you into a shape that will let in all the help and wonder you couldn’t possibly imagine.
A caterpillar doesn’t know it’s becoming a butterfly; it just knows it’s hungry. What emerges from the cocoon is never up to us.